I feel I’ve come to maturity…well, the beginning of maturity I guess. I state this because I have put childish concerns away and have picked up matters of grown people. I’m past what they think and what they say, because quite frankly, it doesn’t benefit me. Why add worthless stuff in a treasure box? I’m glad that wisdom is entering me; but am more thankful grace permits me to retain it. And I believe it’s time. I don’t take it for granted, however, because the grown side of me is telling me it’s a privilege. I’m speaking mentally-the ability to discern life through experiences from past mistakes and impartations, through and from people I’ve been around. Whether it is parents, relatives, and friends, or people I encounter in daily life.
It gives me a new meaning to the saying, “knowledge is power”. At times I can see the emotionally dependent. How sad it is to see them trade everything to get a dose of emotional satisfaction, and only to go back to where they started a season or two ago, it really is depressing looking from outside. I wish they knew better. It’s dismal because I can see the unfairness and the injustice in the negotiation. But it makes me appreciative because I’m able to see. Not only that, but I’m able to weigh and judge the situation as well.
I’m not blinded by the little knowledge I have though. Life reminds me every day that I don’t know everything- she does an excellent job, I may add. This is true because not being on the other end of this battle doesn’t make me all knowing or all wise. It’s only one battle. I’m sure on other battle grounds; I’m on the side of the oppressed and the fooled. Therefore, I can’t put my guard down because I’m able to discern that. Who knows, perhaps I’m seeing myself in daily battle of life. Inquiringly, I could be the emotionally dependent and am watching myself treating with life? Hold up! Ouch, that’s messed up. Wisdom can’t be free. Nevertheless, true wisdom is knowing you don’t know all. Because just when you arrive to that conclusion you know it all, you lost it. And the fact I understand this, gives me the sense I’m coming to maturity.
Written by: Francis “Franzwa” John
Edit by: Shaunna Olson
